Sunday Salon: Anxiety

Posted 17 July, 2016 by April @ The Steadfast Reader in memes, musings

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Time // 6:41 PM EDT

Feeling // Wicked anxious. For no particular reason. I had a meltdown on Twitter today, at the pool. As I was saying, I’ve finally come to the point in my life, where for the most part, I don’t give a fuck what other people think about me. I’m comfortable with the way that I look, the job  that I do, the friends that I keep. Until I go out in public with The Girl. Then I lose. My. Shit. Is she bugging other people too much? Are they judging me for the way that she’s dressed? Am I paying enough attention to her? Too much attention to her? Helicoptering? Neglecting? On. And. On. And. On. My blood pressure rises, my heart starts hammering, and I usually feel frozen in place. It’s a terrible, awful, no good feeling that I don’t know how to shake. Anyway.

Reading //  I just finished up a book that I loved, except for the ending. I hate when an author takes a perfectly content atheist character and makes him/her find god. It’s so… trite. Also still working on Kathleen Glasgow’s upcoming YA(?) novel Girl in Pieces which is raw and powerful and awful in all the best ways. I’m in a reading slump and need to feel excited about something. Suggestions?

That’s all she wrote, Reader. How are you?

April @ The Steadfast Reader

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  • I can relate to that parenting anxiety. I think the fact that moms can do NOTHING right really adds to already existing anxiety. Take almost ANY given situation: Some judgy bitch is going to call it neglectful, another will call it helicoptering. Seriously. Can’t win.

  • Lisa Almeda Sumner

    How did we get here? Parenting has become a high-stakes performance! I remember my mother’s generation just sent all the kids in the backyard, drank coffee, smoked, and gossiped! And they were thought to be just fine at parenting!

  • Mom-ing is SO HARD. I’m only three months into my mom adventure, and the anxiety and self doubt is paralyzing at times. I feel you. BUT I think if you’re thinking this much about it and wondering if you’re doing the right things… it means you are.

    • Despite my recent spikes in anxiety, it does get easier. 🙂 I like her more now that she’s self-sufficient and can get cheese for herself out of the fridge. 😉

  • Bryan G. Robinson

    I’m off Twitter for this week and next week, and I’m not regretting it. I’m able to breathe…not thinking about the political shit.

    I hope your anxiety is over and this week is going better for you.

  • Oh dear, I’m sorry this happened while I was out of town and you couldn’t call and vent. I know it doesn’t mean as much coming from a friend, but I think you’re a terrific mother and I think The Girl is adorable. Screw everyone else.